A few days ago I received a comment here at BrocanteHome that advised me to close the business and take a year off in order to regroup because I cannot teach authenticity if I am not capable of personal authenticity. And after breathing a little sigh of fright, my first thought was that if it was even remotely possible I really would because I am so very disappointed that life is so very difficult I get myself into the most terrible spins, that above all else, affect you.
Truth be told, that following my partner being off ill for so long last year, we are totally dependant on my income and closing the business completely would be utterly detrimental to our security, so I have to continue to survive one way or another, and it is to this end that today I am writing this post and asking you for your opinion.
You see to me, much of living authentically is about always telling my truth: explaining when and why I cannot do the things I need to, never disguising the fact that things have been exhaustingly, frighteningly difficult and that I have been muddling through, worried sick with guilt and still unable to create with any real meaning, all that I committed to last year in the midst of Ste being so ill.
I have long been giving more in the Salon and in the rest of my work than it is physically possible for one woman to manage (and in fact one of the points in the comment above stated that I should stop trying to be perfect) and I realise that this causes this endless cycle of over-promising and under-delivering. But this has long been based on me wanting to give you more than we all find in similar programmes, to ask you to dig deeper, to really do the work involved in creating a life less ordinary. In retrospect though I can see that this has contributed to both my previous work’s popularity and its downfall. That when I’m working manically, most cannot keep up and when I’m not working at all, some are enormously frustrated because they don’t know me well enough to know my story and how it affects the ebb and flow of my work.
So today I want to ask you what you believe would be the best way forward taking into account both my current circumstances, the longevity of our relationship and my obligation to you. To that end I have been considering a number of option and I am going to lay them out below and if you wouldn’t mind, ask you to cast your vote on the future of BrocanteHome…
This then is a Brexit of sorts… a Brocxit if you will!
Ok, so enough of my waffle, let’s jump right in:
Give it all up and look for a job. Close BrocanteHome down and accept that it has had its day. (Though finding work that is both financially viable in comparison to my writing and as flexible might be a tall order and closing the doors on fifteen years of what I have come to think of as my life’s work strikes me as frightening in the extreme).
Leave things exactly as they are, ride out the storm that is life right now and get back to working as soon as I can on all existing projects. Keep the existing prices, blog as often as possible here, (because it fills me up) and try to maintain the status quo.
Reduce the price of the Salon to a flat $10.00 per month on the premise that it will be updated as and when it is possible, while still acknowledging the enormous amount of inspiration available there, and focus on converting more of my content into books available on Kindle and in physical format.
Close down the Salon completely, focus on blogging here in the way I used to, and issue The Brocante Playbook four times a year ( a magazine style format of vintage housekeeping and life less ordinary advice -free to existing salon members) alongside the writing of The Book of Days, thus reducing the cost of running Brocante and going back to the kind of writing I used to do…
While there are of course, all manner of configurations of the above, these seem to me to be the most workable of all solutions available, bearing in mind that I still have so very much to share and of course need to maintain my son’s security at least for the next twelve months as he goes into his GCSE year (yelp!).
Please know that your vote is completely anonymous, but that I am closing comments down for the moment so I can simply get an overall view on your feelings…
Finally thank-you. I so very wish life was easier, but I hope you know how very much I appreciate your support over all these years…
Cast Your Vote Here!
Simply choose your preferred option and click “vote” and you are done.