Brocante Notes

Good morning Gorgeous! How the heck are you today? Me? Exhilarated, exhausted after a busy weekend and a lovely Monday afternoon spent having a terribly English afternoon tea in honour of my friend Diane's birthday... And now here I am: back at my desk and ready to share a few things about BrocanteHome and where I'm at as she in charge of it. Recently you may have noticed that I seem to be in something of a manic creative whirl! Over the past few weeks I have invented the Pep-Talk, created the superstar Salon, got Housekeeping 365 on the go, re-invented the shop and started a rather lovely little affiliate program. All this after two years of treading water miserable,while I recovered from significant trauma and dealt with some health problems. Readers I finally feel as though I am half alive again - and it is nothing short of wonderful to feel almost myself.

Medication, counselling, therapy and sheer strength have got me to where I am today and though what I am feeling at the moment probably borders on the euphoric, I am hoping that this burst of creativity and commitment can once again be sustained and that as a result BrocanteHome (the love of my life!) can continue to thrive.

However I need you to understand that behind the scenes here at BrocanteHome there is just me: I write every single word, design all the sites, hunt down every image, create the graphics, run the business side of the site, do  all the admin, answer all the email, learn code as and when I need to, write and promote the books and plan the future of a site I truly hope you all love as much as I do. Thus, though my heart is absolutely committed to Brocantehome, occasionally I make mistakes, fall behind, get in a muddle or fail to fully understand the technology behind certain aspects of the business.

I might pretend I am Superwoman but I also have  a house to keep to my own exacting standards, a son to whom I am, for the most part, a single Mummy, a family and friends to love, a mortgage to pay and a commitment to the meditation and extreme self-care that has made it possible for for me to climb out of my very own black hole, kicking and fighting and ready to live again.

Life isn't perfect, but it is terribly busy and I do drop the ball sometimes. Indeed recently, I keep finding myself standing at my front door trying to bleep it open with the car alarm, and whenever I try to flash the lights in the car to say thank-you to passing vehicles, I spray the window screen with water and muddle all concerned. I'm still a teeny bit bonkers. Still lie awake each night with a head buzzing with worry and ideas. But I'm getting there and I do believe the proof is here in this, my lovely Brocante polka dotted pudding...

So today I want to thank-you for your unfailing loyalty over the past two years and to ask for your patience whenever it seems as though I am not quite delivering what I promise. This weekend I received a series of shrieky, upsetting (possibly drunk!) emails from a woman who believed that I had not done something she needed me to. And though it was eventually established that the confusion was all hers, I came away from the encounter feeling terribly bruised. So I want you know that  I am always doing my best, always trying to catch up with an amount of work and email that has increased significantly recently, and ultimately trying to secure the future for myself and my little boy, by providing you with what I hope is lovely inspiration and value for money.

When you contact me, I truly do, do my best to get back to you as soon as possible. This can take up to seven days and in the future I am going to make my work here a Monday to Friday thing, so I can keep my sanity for my family at weekends: a necessary boundary I think if BrocanteHome is going to thrive, and I as head honcho and housekeeper, am going to get truly well...

I do hope you understand. Happy Tuesday Housekeepers... 

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