Summer’s End


Here I am again: the polka dot scarlet pimpernel at your service- just one day away from normal life, regular posts here at BrocanteHome, new writing, and the beginning of what is shaping up to be a new era in my life.

On Wednesday morning my little boy starts at the Maharishi free school that has recently been the cause of much consternation in the British media. This spell’s CHANGE, so much so that today I walked behind Finley and heard him muttering “massive change, massssssssssssssssssssssive change” under his breath and felt almost instantly sick. And yet he is so brave. So absolutely willing to trust in Mummy’s crazy notions that he has not uttered a word of complaint about leaving the safe little world he knows to go be educated in a gorgeous old barn with teachers who will remind him daily, that he and his new little peers are there to enjoy themselves…

I want this for Finn. I want a head already bursting with joy to never again be subdued. I want him to feel alive and inspired, not numbed and exhausted. I want him to be everything that he is capable of being instead of settling into his place in the classroom pecking order and learning to hush every last ounce of spirit he has. I think I just want him to absolutely, truly, madly deeply happy and from this, see where unfettered creativity can take him.

It is of course a leap in the dark. A scary leap in the dark. At a time when we are already preparing for a whole lotta change around these parts, throwing Transcendental Meditation into the mix and swapping a two minute walk for a fifteen minute car journey is a lot for little shoulders to carry. And though the school is renowned to be outstanding in all areas, it is still, at least as far as my little boy is concerned, unchartered territory and I would not be the Mummy I am if I could not admit to being a bundle of chewy nerves: at once petrified AND absolutely certain that it is ok to want more for your child, to look upon this change of direction as a gift to all his tomorrows.

And yes, this alters the shape of my days quite dramatically. One of the requirements of earning a place at the school is the parents attendance on a Transcendental Mediation course which I have dutifully done and thoroughly enjoyed (and cannot wait to tell you about soon!) and so into my day must fit two twenty minute sessions of meditation, a total of an hour’s journey to and from school and integration into a new community quite different to the playground I have latterly been used to.  Massssssivvvvvvvvvve change.

So I writing this post to both reassure you and reassure myself that throughout the lovely upheaval of the next two months, throughout the wedding, talk of a new house (!), a new school and what is a new more peaceful more creative approach to living this little old life of mine, I will still be here. That just like all the Septembers that have gone before on Brocantehome, I will return refreshed after the chaotic flurry of the Summer holidays ready and a-willing to regale you with scrumptious titbits, lovely puttery treats, bossy missives, a Seasonal scrub and an inspirational new download.

This is my favorite season on Brocante. I hope, despite all the changes going on behind the scenes, it will once again be yours.

Happy September Darlings.

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15 comments on “Summer’s End

  1. I hope tomorrow goes swimmingly and it is fabulous for Finn! Hope to see you soon xx

  2. I just checked out the school's Web site and I think Finn's new school sounds absolutely wonderful.

    Last year was our big school change — we changed to a school that our gut told us was a much better fit for our daughter — and a year later we still shake our heads at what an improvement, across the board, it is.

    Small classes and a family environment; the children there are happy and care for one another, which sounds a whole lot like what you're headed to.

    Best of luck to Finn and to you; I know how gut-wrenching these anticipatory days are.

    • brocantehome on said:

      Oh this comment means so much to me… thank you- I needed the hand of a Mommy who has been there and done that, and there you are… thank you again.x

  3. The school sounds wonderful! We are in the process of moving 158 miles away so my littlies will be moving schools too. So I know that stomach churning hope that all will end well. I am sure it will for the both of us! x

    • brocantehome on said:

      And if it isn't we just look again right? Nothing is set in stone where are babies are concerned… We are all going to be just fine!x

  4. It all sounds very wonderful to me! well done you! How i wish I could find a nicer school for Lucy,who so far aged 12 has not had one happy day at school.I am desperate to hear about the meditation,pretty please post soon! xx

    • brocantehome on said:

      I'm hoping to grab a full couple of writing hours before the week is out and will make thw wonders of TM a priority… as for Lucy that is just so sad… and hell it must be hard for you to see…x

  5. I read the school's website and it sounds marvelous for Finn. I know he'll blossom there. A child needs what he needs! Yes, you've done the right thing!
    My 'baby' begins graduate school tomorrow and because she was born with quadriplegia I'm going hide in the library on my computer, until she decides when it's practical for attendants to come help her. A tiny chance to return to mummyhood!
    Best of luck tomorrow,
    Linda

  6. Amazing school!! i bet kids from there are polite well rounded adults. Wish there was something like that for my kids. I just have to rely on bringing them up properly and pray that they mix with the right people xx

  7. Well, good for you–and Finn! I think it's great that you're doing what you believe best for your sweet boy.

  8. Carol M on said:

    I applaud your decision to try to find a school that is right for your son. Change is hard, but change is good.

    My 26-year-old son just took TM classes and is suggesting I do the same. Seeing the positive changes in him, I'm definitely interested.

  9. How exciting! I can't wait to see how it all works out for you.